We are close to our November meeting and I am a bit concerned about the quiet that is present around me.
Quiet is not a friend when we have such a short time in our sobriety. When we are quiet there is an abundance of space for pretender voices and pretense. We are all well aware of these voices. These voices speak in half-truths and outright lies. These are the voices that tell us what our lower self wants to hear. They whisper, they shout, they cajole and lie to us. Are these voices familiar? “I’m doing so well, one…._______ won’t hurt; It’s Friday, I think I’ll go out and hang out with my old friends. I can handle it. Or, I will isolate myself and stuff my feelings because this is just a phase that I can make it through.”
Every one of these voices keeps us safe from sobriety, not working our recovery and sobriety. Our lower self is really invested in taking the route that fights any change, not making the tough choices that help us refine our character as a sober, healthy and a happy sacred human.
Are these voices talking to you? Where have you been? Have you been reaching out to your sisters and brothers? Have you been attending any meetings?
The day in and day out discipline that it takes to really become sober is a lot of work. It takes support from those that know what you are going through. It takes new boundaries in support of your sobriety. It takes a new willingness to speak when something bothers you. It takes a vulnerable heart to speak what has touched you deeply.
When it is as quiet as it has been I have to wonder how each of you are maintaining your agreements and working toward sobriety? Which part of you is winning, your lower self or your sacred self? Your walk of sobriety is in its infancy. And with anything in its infancy, much care and consideration is needed to allow it to grow and mature. How are you caring for your infancy in this process? Please consider what you need to foster and tend to your sobriety.
I look forward to hearing from you and seeing each of you for our November meeting, Wednesday at 7 pm AZ time. (6 pm PST) For those of you out of town here is the link for the meeting…
https://plus.google.com/hangouts/_/calendar/NHNvbjlvcTB0cG1uMHNibHI0MDA5dGQyMG9AZ3JvdXAuY2FsZW5kYXIuZ29vZ2xlLmNvbQ._8d34cc1h84pkcb9h88sk2b9k6kskcba16opj0b9p7524ae9l68rjggi56c?authuser=0